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Having epiphanies can sometimes suck.

So while trying to be responsible and sleep a relatively decent sleep schedule, I woke up in the middle of my alloted sleep time to the matters of the previous day. A friend in town has been busy with hanging out with her family, and I didn't expect much time or energy put towards me. Though when I talked to said friend online in the early evening, she basicly said, she might be hanging out with mutual friends. I wasn't sure why she told me other then to offhandedly let me know she would be out to hang out, none of it worked out due to my responsibility of sleep. The thing that hit me was I have been trying to see what time if any she would have to hang out with me, and in this perspective I realized to her I was just an afterthought if even that. This caused me to look at all of my social interactions and friends/family, and except for my parents and probably my roomates (maybe a two other friends) I am an afterthought to everyone else. So now I ponder if it is my Hermit/hibernating type of personality that has caused others to not really think about me in their plans and lives.

Like I said epiphanies can suck.