cheapthrill

So.. my ex boyfriend came in town today.

We hadn't spoken in almost two years because we broke up very, very badly. Then out of the blue, he calls me and actually apologizes for the way things went down. I ask him why he's calling, and he says because he wants to persue a "friendship" because I was a "really sweet person." Right. Then he asks if he can come up and take me to dinner because can fly up anywhere free since he's become a pilot. At first I say no.. but he keeps insisting that he's a total changed man, that he quit drinking, using drugs, and basically quit being a total asshole. But I know him.. I am sure he has "expectations."

Of course I am stupid and I ignore my instincts and agree that he can come, but I make it clear that he's not staying the night at my place, that he has to fly back the same day. I He knows this in advance and still wants to come up. Whatever.

So we haven't seen each other for two years, and I used to pretty much hate him, and he starts right up with me as if we're still boyfriend and girlfriend.. trying to touch me, rub my shoulders and my feet, asking if he can stay over... it made me want to be sick. I cringe when he even looks like he's going to touch me.. I don't want him near me. His excuse is.. well.. you used to like when I did this...

He says that I have turned into a mean person, that I'm so much different, or whatever. When he left he got a sincere thank you with a handshake and he acted all hurt that I had pushed him away from me all day. The difference is that I don't let him do whatever he wants to me anymore like I used to when we were together.. I actually stand up for myself now. I would rather die then be back with him again. Seriously.

I hope he doesn't try calling again.. maybe what I did made him feel rejected enough so that he won't.