cheappearls

I am missing Mike terribly tonight. He's away for his National Guard weekend. He said he would call me tonight. Now it's so late I'm just going to assume he feel asleep early.

So I'm sitting here crying and feeling silly. I meant for fuck's sake I handled a year of him being deployed and I'm falling apart over a weekend? Geez. I'm going to have problems falling asleep tonight.

I have been feeling very melancholy lately and that doesn't help. I'm feeling almost unsatisfied but I'm not sure why. Something is just off. Maybe it's because my birthday is coming up and I want something I don't think I will receive. Meh.

I want a therapist. Haha! I don't have anyone I feel comfortable talking to but I could totally chill on a couch and pour my heart out to a nonjudgemental stranger.