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I'm done. I'm drunk and tired and about to expire. The last girl that I was thinking of asking out has a boyfriend. Done.

Now I am left with a woman that I am in love with the probably doesn't reciprocate, and a number of women that just aren't interested.

All of these things might make more sense if I wasn't drunk and dumb. In...
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Home from work and tired. I've been thinking about girls, or more precisely, about the lack of girls in my life. I have witty reparte with some of my female friends, but aside from that, I don't really seem to talk to any. That's kind of odd. I've always felt more open with my female friends.

Thinking about it now, I realize that I have...
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Another lonely night. The boys are getting girl attention lately, so no lounging on their couch. I went out and had a couple drinks, but there was no trouble to be had.

I'm home now. The lights are all off and I have a glass of water and I'm listening to jazz. Life is good, I'm just a little lonely by myself.

The bar was damn busy tonight. My feet are dead. I am tired. Almost to tired to pass out. I need get up in the morning and pay my rent. Maybe I'll slip it through the mail slot before I retire.

Girls were saucy tonight. I wanted to get a little more playful, but I had too damn many drinks to pour. Maybe another night.

Another night of drinking. I'm having that strange need for physical contact. I miss it. It is so uncommon for me to have a girl in my arms and it is driving me a little batty.

Other than that, I am great. I had a wonderful, productive day. Now I should ge get some sleep and ignore all those voices in my heart...

I kissed a girl tonight. I probably shouldn't have. Now I can't sleep.

I just got home from a couple drinks. I chatted with one of my ex-girls. It was a nice night. Now, I am listening to a little music and geeking before bed. Tomorrow will be a day of chores and such. I'm thinking about asking a girl out on a date. Maybe I'll manage not to lose my nerve. That would be a nice change.

Home from work and broken down. I had along night. Lots of running up and down the stairs, grabbing things that we needed. All in all, it was a success. People were happy, and the food was good.

Now I am sore. My legs are jelly, and my whole body aches. I'm going to be in pain tomorrow.

[after a poor night of sleep]

I'm...
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I haven't done anything all week. I wouldn't say that I've been wallowing, but I haven't been exultant either. I work the next couple of nights, and that is giving me an excuse to get off my lazy duff.

I've been a total hermit. I've left my apartment complex twice all week. I've been totally nocturnal. These things just aren't any good.

The other night,...
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It is again the wee hours, and I am drunk and alone. Another of these nights, yet I am generally content.

I ran into Hera tonight at the bar. We talked a little, as I distracted her form all the other boys that wanted her beautiful attention. It was nice while it lasted.

I drank more with some of the usual suspects. I sat after...
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