chbenito

Yes, I think that I will go to prom. Maybe I'll even be able to scare up a date.

I'm pissy and drunk. Work was kinda boring. I'm far too distracted by the girls. Then again, it might be the lack of girls that distracts me. Right now, there are two women that I want, and I can't have either of them. It pisses me off to no end.

The first girl, is someone I've known for years. She's a little older than me,...
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Argh. So, I've been feeling awfully single lately. I don't have any real prospects, so I figured I poke around with online dating. Oh, well. They just tell me I'm being too picky and that I might want to adjust my preferences (read: lower my standards, settle for something I don't want). That's lame.

You'd think that I wouldn't have this problem, being a bartender,...
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I've been remiss. I haven't written in ages. I stop by daily, but I barely even knock. Instead, I slipped in and out without saying anything.

I've started a small business. That's been exciting. I'm blogging elsewhere too.

Ahh... I'm a bit drunk. I've been busy lately. I've been working a lot and staying out of trouble. It's fine, but a bit boring.

I've got a crush. It's a girl that I work with. She's so very beautiful. I think that maybe she's interested. I'll have to see where it goes.

I don't want to be alone tonight. I want someone to hold...
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Another night at work, another night of returing home drunk. Oh, the girls I work with are the most gorgeous things ever. They make my heart palpitate.

Anyway, it's another lonely night. I'm home alone and I think I'll eat some ice cream and watch a movie...

I'm done. I'm drunk and tired and about to expire. The last girl that I was thinking of asking out has a boyfriend. Done.

Now I am left with a woman that I am in love with the probably doesn't reciprocate, and a number of women that just aren't interested.

All of these things might make more sense if I wasn't drunk and dumb. In...
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Home from work and tired. I've been thinking about girls, or more precisely, about the lack of girls in my life. I have witty reparte with some of my female friends, but aside from that, I don't really seem to talk to any. That's kind of odd. I've always felt more open with my female friends.

Thinking about it now, I realize that I have...
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Another lonely night. The boys are getting girl attention lately, so no lounging on their couch. I went out and had a couple drinks, but there was no trouble to be had.

I'm home now. The lights are all off and I have a glass of water and I'm listening to jazz. Life is good, I'm just a little lonely by myself.

The bar was damn busy tonight. My feet are dead. I am tired. Almost to tired to pass out. I need get up in the morning and pay my rent. Maybe I'll slip it through the mail slot before I retire.

Girls were saucy tonight. I wanted to get a little more playful, but I had too damn many drinks to pour. Maybe another night.

Another night of drinking. I'm having that strange need for physical contact. I miss it. It is so uncommon for me to have a girl in my arms and it is driving me a little batty.

Other than that, I am great. I had a wonderful, productive day. Now I should ge get some sleep and ignore all those voices in my heart...

I kissed a girl tonight. I probably shouldn't have. Now I can't sleep.