Body Issues & Being a Hopeful

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One thing I value about this site is that I can talk about things that normally scare the shit out of me to talk about...things I can't really discuss on my personal blog that friends and family read. That being said, here's something that really scares me, would love some opinions and advice.

I originally applied to be a Suicide Girl on a whim about a month ago, and received the green light from site admin few days after. I really think it would be amazing to do a set to become more comfortable with my body, as I have a multitude of issues with it. While there are several, there is one that really makes me nervous and has always made me ashamed.

I have inverted nipples. Well, one is. Heaven forbid they both be THE SAME, that would be too easy, LOL. Anyway, they look very odd to me, and it seems like nipples are a big part of what makes breasts beautiful to many people. Not only do I have this weird nipple thing happening, my boobs are just generally really soft and saggy (36F). You can't even really see the nipples when I'm standing because they're just kind of down on the end of my boobs.

I have always been incredibly insecure and embarrassed about them, and this is stopping me from having a set done. I feel like people will be disgusted by photos of them (as I am usually disgusted when I look at them myself). Part of me wants to use SG as a way to become more comfortable with my body, but part of me is terrified that I'll hear negative remarks or will gross people out.

What do you think? Would you be grossed out by this? Do SGs often get critical feedback on the site about their bodies or looks? I'm just curious to hear opinions.

Thanks so much for reading, and for all comments. This is a very tough thing for me to put out there, and I feel like this is a safe place to do it. <3

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lanemeyer:
I wouldn't be grossed out by them in the slightest. Let me put it to you this way: Just based on the photos I've seen of you thus far, I'm DYING to see the rest of you. For real. Also, SGs generally don't get criticized on their bodies unless they've been augmented. The only comments I ever see on here that could be considered negative are people criticizing boob jobs - and even then, fuck those trolls. I know how one negative comment can undo mountains of praise (I suffered similarly with art exhibitions where there'd be pages and pages of compliments, but the only comment I'd remember was that one person who said, "YOUR WORK IS A JOKE"), but at the end of the day you need to do you, for you. And from where I'm sitting, I'd sure love to see more of you. :)
stargrapher:
I find inverted nipples to be totally sexy and a turn on.......and I think you are absolutely GORGEOUS and oh sooooo sexy, and you have amazing boobs!~

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