chase

i'm such a stupid bitch really

or maybe i'm just lonely....

who gives a fuck??

you know how if you buy something new to eat, like a new chocolate bar and you try it and its foul it kinda puts you off chocolate for a while?

ever been like that with people?? again, maybe just me...

i dont get relationships at all. i think pretty much ever person i've ever been with has slapped me about or cheated on me, maybe both, hey we all get lucky....

but stuff like that yeah? isnt that meant to make you realise how lucky you are when something good happens?

soooo fucked up now....

i just told the first boy who hasnt fucked me over i couldnt face getting into anything because i couldnt rely on other people that could eventually hurt me...because i've done that for like, ever. and it doesnt really work out.

so is this like letting the dude who cheated on me 4 times win? or the one who punched me in the face?
or am i really standing on my own two feet?

cause right now i feel like such a stupid fucking whore.

chase x