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You guys are so helpful! I love that. I am not going to dance. Well, I don't think so. I am going to try waitressing first. If I can't find a waitressing job...then who knows?

I feel fine. Like, I feel like I can do anything. This was the most major surgery I've had and I seem to be healing at the most rapid pace. It was just over a week ago and I occasionally need to pop a vicodin, but most of the time I feel just fine. Normal almost. I have to remind myself not to lift certain things because I am supposed to take it easy for six weeks. Not do more than walk and not lift more than 20 lbs. It is a lot harder to obey the rules when I feel like I can pretty much do anything. I think I am going to job hunt this week because I don't have to go back to work for two more weeks. I will not be able to look for a new job after I return to work. I am going to milk it just because I need another job so much. Plus, I HATE my job. Ahhhhhh!

I can't wait till I get to move and go to school. I don't think I wrote much about this, but I am going to move in about six months. I am going to go to American University for its journalism program. I am scared of moving, but it is a really good school and I want to go there tons. I have been accepted already and everything. I was stunned a little that I got in because it is a pretty hard school to get into. They accept something like 30% of applicants. I think it is because I had three REALLY strong recommendations and a 4.0 in the small amount of college I've completed. Who knows?

It's going to be hard because of my sister. I love my sister so much. Because of my medical problems I have been having I was forced to move back with my mother after living on my own for two years. Something I swore I would never, never, never do. But, really, I had no choice. I missed my sister so much. I have been like her mother. If she died I don't know what I would do. My eyes well up just thinking about it. I think it is because three of her friends died a couple years ago. I will spare details for now (Some of you may remember about Ashley Pond and Miranda Gaddis...it made national news but is something that could have easily been forgotten. My sister was best friends with Ward Weaver's daughter and considered Ward to be like her father; he murdered her two friends), but she definitely could have been next. It is close to a miracle that she is alive right now...at least as far as I am concerned. It breaks my heart to this day. I can't imagine how it would feel to have two of your friends sexually assaulted and murdered by someone that you trust and consider to be family. Having any of your friends die at all would be traumatic enough. It is just so sad.


How did I get on that subject?