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I want to die. I am in so much pain. I don't ever want to have surgery again, although, I didn't really want it in the first place. It has only been two days, I don't think I can handle it much longer. You guys are so sweet. Thanks for everything.

I don't understand plastic surgery; why would anyone put themself through this on PURPOSE. What fuck-ups we have in this world. It totally wouldn't be worth it.

I feel bad because I told the guy I am dating to not bother calling me or coming to see me today and I miss him soooo much. I was a total bitch to him yesterday. I wouldn't want to be around me either; in fact, I don't.

I got into some fights with my mom today. She has been surprsingly very very helpful through this surgery. I have a tendency to pick fights when I really just want to curl up into a ball and cry. I always get SUPER depressed after surgery. Three surgeries in four months has really brought that fact to my attention.

And I am still trying to get over my freaking cold. My nose will not stop running. It is so gross! I am so gross! Ahhh!!!

Some good things:
1. I get to keep my job; my boss had a change of heart. (After the last surgery they were going to fire me)

2. I got into the college of my choice and will be attending there in the fall.

3. My aunt visited me yesterday and I love her to death.

4. My cousin is having twins and I LOVE babies! (But I DO NOT want my own...)