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I need advice, please! Okay, so I am really frustrated. I am on medical leave from work (I'm going to lose my job, but that is entirely another issue). I am incredibly grateful for that because I can barely walk or even just stand up. In order to get out of bed in the morning I need to talk a percocet (prescirbed by my doctor... I don't like drugs). I am only twenty. I want desperately to be normal again.

As a result, I want to go out tonight. I am torn about it because I know that if I do I will lay in bed all day tomorrow and not be able to get up. I really want to pretend that I am okay. My condition is, hopefully, temporary and I am on the road to recovery. I have surgery on Tuesday. Had surgery in October. And will have at least one more surgery before I will be better. I want to go out one more time before Tuesday surgery. Also, I am going to be recovering over Christmas and New Years.

My question is: Should I force myself to go out in hopes that I will have fun, but in reality might leave pre-maturely because I'm in too much pain? Is it worth it to try and act normal. I have been in pain for years. Most of the time I could tolerate it, but obviously am having an extremely difficult time now. I want to act like I'm 20 not 90. Advice would just tickle me pink! Thanks!