I posted some new photos if anyone wants to check them out!
trebo tagged me a while ago and I was a bad girl and didn't post 20 things. I am not even sure if there are twenty interesting things about me, but I am going to try...
1. I used to weigh 153 pounds and I wanted desperately to lose weight, but I it seemed like no matter how hard I tried I couldn't lose weight.
2. Then one summer I was always in pain and feverish and extremely sick ALL the time. I needed one surgery to cure my ailment...
3. One surgery turned into three... and now I am almost 40 pounds lighter!
I only wanted to lose twenty pounds. Funny how things work out... how wonderful, the benefits of surgery! 
4. Although, I really was genuinely ill and I would never wish illness or pain on anyone for the sake of beauty.
5. Ironically enough, though, after going on and on about how I don't understand how someone could put themselves through so much pain ON PURPOSE for BEAUTY
(aka:plastic surgery) to my mother, she decided to have a complete face lift and breast implants (okay, so breast implants I can KIND of understand). 
6. My mom is always broke - I can't figure out where she came up with the money.
7. As long as we are on the topic of my mom... she offered to get my 16 year old sister a nose job, but the doctor refused to operate. Good doctor - BAD mom! I was pissed off that my mom even offered. My sister is beautiful. Her nose is perfect.
8. Someone I used to work with (and was practically in love with) wrote me through myspace today inquiring, "What is up with the hooker look. Pull it together for christ's sake. Jon" - This was in reference to a few pictures of me in a school girl outfit. He was being ridiculous. Plus, we haven't spoken for at least six months. Who does he think he is.
9. The above mentioned individual used to be (and I guess on some level still is) very very protective of me. I think that is one of the reasons I liked him. He was the first male in my entire life to respect and try to protect me. Everyone else let me run amuck or abused me in some way (physically or sexually).
10. Still, he was out of line and I told him so...
11. I am in love and my boyfriend is far far away. I miss him very much.
12. Everyone I work with thinks that I am a freak in bed. I don't know why. I didn't tell anyone that...
13. At the same time, they are not necessarily wrong: I like golden showers - amoung other things. 
14. But, my current boyfriend is the only person I have ever given head to.
15. And I haven't had sex with very many people (4), but no one believes me because everyone thinks I am such a sexual person. Apparently, that means I must be a slut.
16. I have a ton of homework to do and I have had 3 days to do it and I can't get motivated. I need to finish it before I go to bed because I work for 14 hours tomorrow.
17. I'm always afraid no one loves me - including my boyfriend.
18. I need too much attention and no one person could ever fulfill that need. It is one of the worst personality traits I have. And it gets worse depending on how I feel about myself or my surroundings. I have been insanely flirtatious since I moved, but it is almost like a reflex. I can't help it. I am uncomfortable here and sad. Wah! Poor me. I'm so dumb.
19. Although, I flirt I have not and would not cheat on my boyfriend.
20. I want to go back home, but I am afraid it would be a mistake.
trebo tagged me a while ago and I was a bad girl and didn't post 20 things. I am not even sure if there are twenty interesting things about me, but I am going to try...
1. I used to weigh 153 pounds and I wanted desperately to lose weight, but I it seemed like no matter how hard I tried I couldn't lose weight.
2. Then one summer I was always in pain and feverish and extremely sick ALL the time. I needed one surgery to cure my ailment...
3. One surgery turned into three... and now I am almost 40 pounds lighter!
I only wanted to lose twenty pounds. Funny how things work out... how wonderful, the benefits of surgery!
4. Although, I really was genuinely ill and I would never wish illness or pain on anyone for the sake of beauty.
5. Ironically enough, though, after going on and on about how I don't understand how someone could put themselves through so much pain ON PURPOSE for BEAUTY
(aka:plastic surgery) to my mother, she decided to have a complete face lift and breast implants (okay, so breast implants I can KIND of understand).
6. My mom is always broke - I can't figure out where she came up with the money.
7. As long as we are on the topic of my mom... she offered to get my 16 year old sister a nose job, but the doctor refused to operate. Good doctor - BAD mom! I was pissed off that my mom even offered. My sister is beautiful. Her nose is perfect.
8. Someone I used to work with (and was practically in love with) wrote me through myspace today inquiring, "What is up with the hooker look. Pull it together for christ's sake. Jon" - This was in reference to a few pictures of me in a school girl outfit. He was being ridiculous. Plus, we haven't spoken for at least six months. Who does he think he is.
9. The above mentioned individual used to be (and I guess on some level still is) very very protective of me. I think that is one of the reasons I liked him. He was the first male in my entire life to respect and try to protect me. Everyone else let me run amuck or abused me in some way (physically or sexually).
10. Still, he was out of line and I told him so...
11. I am in love and my boyfriend is far far away. I miss him very much.
12. Everyone I work with thinks that I am a freak in bed. I don't know why. I didn't tell anyone that...
13. At the same time, they are not necessarily wrong: I like golden showers - amoung other things.
14. But, my current boyfriend is the only person I have ever given head to.
15. And I haven't had sex with very many people (4), but no one believes me because everyone thinks I am such a sexual person. Apparently, that means I must be a slut.
16. I have a ton of homework to do and I have had 3 days to do it and I can't get motivated. I need to finish it before I go to bed because I work for 14 hours tomorrow.
17. I'm always afraid no one loves me - including my boyfriend.
18. I need too much attention and no one person could ever fulfill that need. It is one of the worst personality traits I have. And it gets worse depending on how I feel about myself or my surroundings. I have been insanely flirtatious since I moved, but it is almost like a reflex. I can't help it. I am uncomfortable here and sad.
Wah! Poor me. I'm so dumb.
19. Although, I flirt I have not and would not cheat on my boyfriend.
20. I want to go back home, but I am afraid it would be a mistake.
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things have gotten a bit easier here now. much thanks to the new shrink i got, the job and a friend whom i see once a week. i have my boyfriend here, and that is very good. he is most of the reason i am here in the first place. he got his dreamjob, and i didn't really consider not moving down here with him. my job-opportunities are much better here. i have family and friends here as well. that REALLY helps. especially tfriends.
i hope it somehow works out with all this fuss about school and such for you. i'd feel very torn too if i were in that situation. hang in there