charliewonka

Oh man its been a hectic week and a half now.

Ive been telling everyone back home that ive been planning on moving to Vegas after this gig and now im having second thoughts. im totally not saving up enough money to be good from the getgo.
it would make sense to stay at home and save up the easy cash and then transfer out, im just afraid of people thinking that even though i left and did the army thing i ended up like everyone else, living back at home doing nothing. bleh.

talk about a case of serious cabin fever.
im tired of sitting around weekend after weeked and not doing anything.
i love the army but i hate how it alienates people..i mightve touched on this before..
i need normal friends.
i need normal relationships.
i need a relationship?

i went and saw a psychic the other day.
was driving and saw her shop so i decided to stop by and see what was happening in there.
now im not sure what the going rate is for psychic advice but it was kind of expensive.
she told me i needed to start having more fun in my life, that im too serious and that now is the time to relax.
she also told me that im sad inside?
not too sure i believe that one..
aaand she also told me that someone in my past hurt me and that i still havent gotten over it.
bleh...she might be right on that one. maybe im just in denial? blehhh i dont want to get all emo.
so, 2/3? is she legit?...

another weekend coming up. bunch of army studying for me and maybe a few drinks.
ive got a ton of film in my fridge that i havent used, its been sitting there for a while now but i dont know? what to shoot? photographers block?
sigh...
quit whining charlie.