charlatan

Did a little bartending the other night at my brother in law's recording studio. He had a party for the Grammy Association. I got to meet Jimmy Jam and some music industry people. Lots of people in bands. Too bad I'm not trying to be a musician. It would have been a good place to mingle and get myself noticed.

Too bad noone ever has a junk mail convention. Not that I would go but I could...

I don't want people to misunderstand my last few entries. I am not depresssed in any way. Nor am i any longer hung up on my wife or her new life. Just because I don't love her anymore doesn't mean the betrayal hasn't changed me. That said she still does know how I work on the inside and can get inside me and "push my buttons" like noone else does. I guess twelve years will give that ability with someone. It's just that sometimes I think she gets off on it.

It has taken alot of work for me to get myself to this point of freedom in my heart. I am rather proud I did not fold like a tent through it all. Even though I did not get out of it unscathed I still got out alive and that is the important thing to me.

I've lost eleven pounds so far and am doing well. I actually think I already look thinner and that makes me happy. I realy want to look appealing for the fist time in a long time.

So here's to me getting thin and turning heads!!!