charlatan

Things have been ok as of late. No major drama. Life seems to be falling into a routine for me. Well as much of a routine as can be expected. My wife is slowly taking my generosity and draining my pocketbook. I guess it doesn't bother me that much. I like to help. No one seems to understand why I do so much for her after all that she has done to me. I figure in the end i will have nothing to be ashamed of except my failure at matrimony. I know that I did kind things for her and that is enough for me wolk out of this with my head held high.

Do you think that makes me kind or gullible? Who's to say.

I miss the SGT group alot lately and chastise myself for not being able to attend any events for a long while now. I know I am not close to anyone in particular but in some ways I like that for now.

One of my oldest friends and his girl of almost 4 years are splitting up and they are kind of making me their referee. I spent like 3 hours on the phone with each of them in the last few days talking about their relationship. I just can't help but wonder, why aren't they talking to each other about it? Is that how relationships are supposed to end? Through a middle man? Fuck I have been doing it wring all this time, then. Not that i have ever been on the end to end anything in my life, but still. I always forced the face to face breakup. I guess I am a glutton for punishment.

The new year has started and I kicked it off with a new TV. That a boy, huh? Could I be more american? More Gen X? I don't care. i like it, and since I gave the other one back to my wifey and her hunka hunka man. I needed one.

Does it seem strange to anyone that I refer to her as my wife? I have been asked about it alot in the past few weeks, like I shouldn't call her that. I just figure that is what she is, for now. When she isn't, I won't give her that title.

I don't know. I feel long-winded today with really nothing to much to say.

I will see you all later. My dog has to go to the doctor. I hope she is OK.