charlatan

How is everyone? I sold my house last weekend. Now all I need to do is find a new one. My work stint is over and I say thank god for that. I only had to come 900 bucks from my asking price. That kicks ass! I went and saw Shaun of the Dead last night and I thought it was really good. Did anyone else go and see it? You all should. On saturday I went to Oktoberfest at Gastaph's on University and got drunk enough that I wasn't sure where I was at first when I woke up. It was a fun night. I went with a really old friend of mine. It made me remember how much I like hanging out with my friends I grew up with and that I don't see them enough. They are people that knew me before I learned to guard myself from others. They are the only ones who truly know me anymore. I was all set to meet my first SGTC group members but chickened out like I always do. I need to build some confidence again. This year has taken it all out of me. I wonder if you can get it in an over the counter pill or something.

I am going to visit my folks next week on Sunday thru Wednesday. I like poing up to the lake and hang out with old friends. Sometimes going to see parents is difficult for me because I am not sure I have turned out the way they wanted. Not that they ever told me what it was they wnted of me but when I think about them and my sister and myself I feel kind of like a failure. It's probably just me.

I have been feeling very lonely lately. Very confused about life and that makes me uneasy because I thought that by now I would be starting to figure this living stuff out. I haven't even come close to that.

Maybe someday I will have something dear to me. Maybe someday lonliness will be just a memory.

Not today...