charlatan

My life is missing something. Missing some part that has disabled my ability to enjoy things like I used to. I need something profound to happen. Do those kinds of things even happen anymore?

When I look for something profound it always ends up as profanity.

I'm calling in to work today. I'm tired of going to that place. One day of sick and that will make this six days off. It's worth it to me.

Valentine's day is upon us and like so many other journal writers I'm left at a loss for the day. When I was married I always tried to do something special. Then the last few years it has been a day to get blackout drunk and cry to myself. This year it's really just another day. Just another day to do what I have become quite good at doing, nothing.

I still miss the familiarity that came with my wife. I miss the comfort of someone who has known you so long that words don't always need to be said. Time has stripped away all the rest when it comes to Erica.

Time strips away alot, things you wish to forget, even things you wish to remember.

For everything that gets stripped away with time it just doesn't feel right how much work needs to be put into building something new.