charlatan

Feeling upbeat and generally just fine until walking my usual around the wedge when it hits me like a hard right cross to the jaw.

Sadness.

For no apparent reason. No thought set it off, nothing happened to make me feel this way. It feels like a great wieght on my heart. i want to curl up, to crawl away. I want to sleep this sadness away.

Why?

I don't know why I feel like this but I cannot shake it. I cannot push it down.

If I hadn't given it up completely...I would cry.

That will never happen again.