charitee

i'm tired. i need a day off, a night out, a break. my brain is full. i'd cry out of sheer exhaustion and frustration but that would take up too much energy.

i think i've lost my mind. sadly, there wasn't much left to lose.



i think that perhaps my melancholy of late is caused by a severely jaded temperment. maybe people are right and i'm just too sensative but i simply can not look at the world with the rose colored glasses so many others proudly display. i find i have no faith in humanity and the system it is destined to be bound by.

i'm loosing faith. my demons have begun to show their ugly faces again and i can't make the nightmares stop. i sleep now only when i feel i'll fall over if i don't lay down.

time to go back to work now. a corporate job for a non-corporate girl. i should have saved myself from my own life ages ago. but pity gets me no where. you'd think i'd have learned that by now.