Well 2009 is upon us. I'll just go ahead and boot 2008 in the ass and wipe my hands from that rubbish. So...What can I improve upon in my life for this year.
First and foremost...being a better father. My son needs to know Im around for him and i think it's time to show him that I can be. He has ALWAYS meant so much to me, I love him very much. So...I will be a better father in as much as I can possibly be at this point in my life.
Second, For all my life I have thrown my heart out there to get crushed. I seem to always have my emotions lead. I don't go slow enough, I always let the woman lead the way. So from now on, I think i'm gonna start taking it slower. For my own piece of mind. Not get so involved so fast. I'm tired of being hurt. It's really not fun. Especially when some of the woman I've been involved with have been very special to me. This resolution is probably going to be the hardest to follow because I always seem to get swept up in the passion and romance, the connection. I want so bad to love but I always end up heart broken...
"When all ya gotta keep is strong, move along, move along like I know you do
and even when your hope is gone, move along, move along just to make it through
When everything is wrong, we move along..."
First and foremost...being a better father. My son needs to know Im around for him and i think it's time to show him that I can be. He has ALWAYS meant so much to me, I love him very much. So...I will be a better father in as much as I can possibly be at this point in my life.
Second, For all my life I have thrown my heart out there to get crushed. I seem to always have my emotions lead. I don't go slow enough, I always let the woman lead the way. So from now on, I think i'm gonna start taking it slower. For my own piece of mind. Not get so involved so fast. I'm tired of being hurt. It's really not fun. Especially when some of the woman I've been involved with have been very special to me. This resolution is probably going to be the hardest to follow because I always seem to get swept up in the passion and romance, the connection. I want so bad to love but I always end up heart broken...
"When all ya gotta keep is strong, move along, move along like I know you do
and even when your hope is gone, move along, move along just to make it through
When everything is wrong, we move along..."
life is about learning, and everyone touches our life to show us something about ourselves, whether that be good or bad. if you shift the way you think to start taking these interactions with others as lessons.
love is something you have to have for yourself first. it's not something you can seek outside of yourself. if yu are looking outside of you for love, you've got to figure out why....
anyhow i would love to finish our discussion from last night so.....
i did not know, youre allready a father!!! But it is pretty good, that you want to be there for your son this year (what ever might happened before)...
And hell yes....this chat is so addictive!!! Instead the song on Manson "i dont like the drugs (but the drugs like me)" ....
I DONT LIKE THE CHAT, BUT THE CHAT LIKES ME....
Hmm....will be on later...Hope to see my "PRISON-STUDENT"
Kiss FARBTUPFER