chaoticmonkey

Heya peoples...time for a new post

How shall we start...hmmmmmmm
Well first lets start with karma...cause ive noticed it alot recently....
I dated the mother of my child for 6 years before she decided to cheat on me with 2 of my really good friends...sad i know...but i find it interesting that the oddest thing happened..

First...one of the friends she fucked i ended up seeing at the Skinny Puppy concert and he was FAT!!! i mean big....and he used to be a skinny little twerp. i can only say that Karma payed him back for fucking me over...its sad though because we used to be in a kick ass industrial band called Fluidline...and now....no more

Second...so she ends up cheating on me with my friends and then guess what happens...the guy she is currently with turns around and cheats on her with one of her friends...do you think thats coincedence or fate???

But ive also noticed it in my life...when i do something bad like for instance...(and i know this is bad) stealing a whole crap load of DVD's from a place i used to work at.....(its ok though...everyone did) i ended up having to sell them all because i needed money....weird shit like that happens to me all the freakin time...its interesting.

So...i got some new EBM music which im lovin...and the funny thing is im getting it shipped from PA...i might have to move there soon.

Adjusting to the lead position in a new store is still alot of pain...people are not as excepting of a leader when they havent had one in years. And i have alot on my plate to deal with which makes it all the more hard on me. Hopefully this will die down soon enough.

ok...well ill post more sometime...but for now....i bid you all a fond farewell...

---J---

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-Obsolete-

Self-Induced comas, hazy memories of the night before...
Where "only one more drink" meant many several more...
Still life, it paints the scene,
of alcohol and nicotine,
The greatest friends there's ever been...the sharpest guillotine...
One truth, one way,
you hurt everyday...
Seems sad, so clear....a change is needed...

So it's time to face the fear of dealing with myself,
and all these foolish games that keep life incomplete
But as you walk on by, you never say goodbye...
It leaves the bitter taste of feeling obsolete

Recovery...responsibilities seems easier in dreams,
The path chosen to take makes you weak in the knees...
Resist the private hell,
Of the habits cruel carousel,
that keeps spinning round and round,
where it stops no one can tell...

So it's time to face the fear of dealing with myself,
and all these foolish games that keep life incomplete
But as you walk on by, you never say goodbye...
It leaves the bitter taste of feeling obsolete

Fall prey to all the tricks,
by charlatans and heretics,
that try and drag you to the past,
where demons still exist...
Self medicate,
the catatonic state...
from lifting one more glass,
but the clarity may never help the sickness pass...

So it's time to face the fear of dealing with myself,
and all these foolish games that keep life incomplete
But as you walk on by, you never say goodbye...
It leaves the bitter taste of feeling obsolete

---Backandtotheleft