chaoticfire

THAT BITCH!!!.....

So she tells me today that she probably wont bring out my boy. She put it off to long buying the tickets. The prices rose and she spent the money on buying a dog. The same fucking kind of dog that we had when we were married about a $1800 Shiba Inu. My dog she managed to lose in the move and never found when I was out of town. That we had most of our marriage. They even went out and got the same truck we had. She just basically replaced me and got everything we had just now the newer version.

WHAT THE FUCK!!! was the point of keeping me alive all these times. If I can never get a break in anything I do. Maybe I really did pass on the first time I died and now I am in hell. To answer the question I have flat lined three times in my life. All varying ways and not all suicide attempts. I know everyone keeps saying it must be for a reason but I wonder if it is just so I can be a cruel joke. Hahaha I am laughing.

^^^ What a whiny ass. I am just so tired, stressed, depressed and my spirit is just plain ass broken.