chaoticfire

Thank you all for the support on my last blog...

So yesterday my baby boy moved to San Francisco. I am hurting so bad from this. The are coming back in a few weeks to visit. One of my step daughters is getting an award from the state for her gymnastics. I am just counting down until then.

Work has been okay. There is always tons of drama there. Way more than need be. I dont usually want to be there but I need the job for the moment. Especially since I dont know what I am going to do just yet. I am really thinking heavy about moving to San Francisco. The only issue is that my brother is now going through a divorce and they are getting rid of the house. The mortgage just jumped up almost $200. So we have about three months or less to move out before the new price takes effect. He is expecting me to move with him to help with rent. I am a little worried since I can barely afford the $300 a month I am paying right now. Just when you think life is settling down a little.

So I have mentioned before that I am abstaining from sex. Well a few days ago I tried to masturbate for maintenance reasons. I didnt want any accident while I slept. Hehe I still get horny of course. Well my session didnt go so well I could not get myself there. I think that saying might be true. " If you dont use you loose it" Hahaha

I am so excited about this Wednesday. I am going in to get some new sleeve work done. I just hope that I saved up enough money. I have been going to Karen for ages now so we never discuss price before hand. She usually always takes care of me since I have been going for so many years. I cant wait. I am getting one of my totem animals on my arm. Yeah me!!!

Love you all