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Thursday Dec 19, 2002

Dec 19, 2002
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I'm gullible.

I'm stupid.

Amelie's a bigger liar than my sister.

If she hadn't gotten me to go to New York, it'd be some other guy.

I'm a sucker, and a fool. None of this sounds "right."

She's been trying to talk to me about this for weeks, she says. Asking me if I'm still going and dropping it when I say "yes" is not "trying to talk about it." "I thought you'd come to your senses," she said. Way to talk things through, Mom. And a week before the trip, no less.

She's had months and done nothing. I thought she was happy I was taking a trip and going to have a good time. Fuck. She's had months, and with seven days to go she says all these awful things about a girl I like more than I've ever liked anyone, and there's nothing I can do about it. Nothing to convince her otherwise.

She knows what she knows, so she thinks, and won't hear anything else.

Welcome to the age of the internet love affair. It's not just a great way to meet new people, it's also a great way to push away the people you already know.

Merry fucking Christmas.

Hallelujah. Holy shit. Where's the Tylenol?
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morgan:
((((hug))))

i know how this is. people think they know what they know, and parents in particular probably think that what they know is whats best for you...she's probably scared, which is understandable, but it's still really annoying to be treated as if you're unable to take care of yourself just because you're younger.
Dec 21, 2002
lefty:
dude... thats focked up.... so now she's ditched you? how did this all come about? i know from what ive read of your journals you seemed to be really happpy... and it seemed like she was likewise....

dude i almost had an internet romance... it didnt turn out to good though... it was a learning experience i suppose.... but i coulda done without it.....
Dec 21, 2002

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