chaosmachine

I had a most interesting weekend. It was another gaurd weekend, but it was much different, we played as civilians in a joint military/civilian police agencies. I got to find out first hand what happens when a swat team storms a bulding your in, I got a boot on my head in 3 seconds. Alsoplayed a protestter who protested in french, we had some great signsmade, like "Eat at Jihads", "Bring in the real army" and others. It wasa wild weekend, i even played as a dead body....
Other news,I also passed my pt test, ranmy 2miles and didmypush ups and situps within standards.
Bahh in FURTHER news, Calculus is kicking my ass, but i'm recovering. I guess my biggest issue is with feeling depresed and apthetic without a real reasonor directionforthe feelings I have been having. Anger, fear, hate listlessness, apathy on a huge scale.Dunno i got an ultimatum from my calc teacher, people with my first test performance, don't have a great chance of passing the course.....Bah well myother classes i did horrible on first exams, but I expect to get A's and B's. Eventhough i passed my pt test, i'm 15pounds over weight.. Really feeds my unadulterated anger I've been experiencing lately. Good thing i'm not a mean drunk......Anyways, look forward to going shooting tomorrow, I havn't gone to the range in months, feeling deprived. Gots to shoot something http://www.metalstorm.com/04_videos/large_video_advice.html (the 36 barrel prototype)

Feeling: unrequieted Anger/Impending Chaos
Song: Nirvana, Milk It
Food: canned soup w/crackers
drink: Rockstar energy drink
room:Messed the fuck up
appearance: baseline
grammar/spelling:intermittent
rant: OVER