I do everything I can to avoid letting this blog become like a livejournal. You know, *rantrant everything sucks emo emo* 
But its inescapable anymore, if I am going to post about my life, the truth is that I'm actually quite depressed. All the time. I distract myself with games, or movies. But I'm invariably still sad once the moment is over, I'm lonely...that's the bottom line. I'm truly, incredibly lonely. I miss my friends, who are all far away now (or some started that way), and I miss having someone to hold in my arms.
But I'm not looking for sympathy, and I believe there's only something like 2 people that ever read my journal anyway. I just got tired of wearing the happy mask for a moment, so indulge me my small respite. The next time you hear me I won't drown everyone else in my sorrows, I promise.
And I hope that everyone out there has a truly happy day.
But its inescapable anymore, if I am going to post about my life, the truth is that I'm actually quite depressed. All the time. I distract myself with games, or movies. But I'm invariably still sad once the moment is over, I'm lonely...that's the bottom line. I'm truly, incredibly lonely. I miss my friends, who are all far away now (or some started that way), and I miss having someone to hold in my arms.
But I'm not looking for sympathy, and I believe there's only something like 2 people that ever read my journal anyway. I just got tired of wearing the happy mask for a moment, so indulge me my small respite. The next time you hear me I won't drown everyone else in my sorrows, I promise.
And I hope that everyone out there has a truly happy day.