chanel

Alright.

Quite honestly Im at a standpoint in my brain and heart where Im so godamned confused that Im getting migraines from it.

I dont like to get personal on here, cause quite frankly, its none of anyones business. But I hate being confused. and Sick...tired..bones aching all the time.

There are times when I get up and go to work and wonder..really..what the FUCK AM I DOING....then I get yelled at at work or I forget to do something during service...I again wonder...WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING...

I quit smoking, which has given me more energy, thank god. I need it now more than anything..because I dont know where to start pushing myself to pull myself together.

No, its not depression again you emo bastard. You mightve called me emo and whiney, but godammit you could have cheese with all the whining youve given me. Thank god you dont live in this area anymore.

Bitter much?

At times yes. I dont even know why Im ranting about this person. We dont even talk, but I hate it because when I think about it, I get right angry. Instantly furious as someone would say.

In other news, Chanel will be at the Planet Smashers show on Wednesday at the Opera house. Having a godamned good time with Spencer. Come say hi if your going. I cant buy you a drink because Im poor, but we can imagine it otherwise.

Ive picked up so much good music these days that it stiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiings.....

the greatest band right now
holy crap I love these guys
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeee so awesome
le sigh......please go here....right angry and downright awesome
I happen to like the new Cd and plan to buy it...

Theres so much more..
but you could go to Spark_of_Life's page and find out much much more.
Sept 23....
To my peeps in the G-town...I miss you all...and I cant wait to see youu soon...

Seratonin were gonna tear shit up on Friday night like WHOA...
I probably have to work on Saturday but Ill push through..


ooooooooooooooooooo


That is all.
C.


and....
Let's start out by starting over.
What did I expect?
You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks.
But you're so untouchable.
I'm oh-so-terrible at this.
I'm terrible at this, you know.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.

And I bet you've got every word I said
memorized in your head.
And you'll use every one of them,
and you'll use every one of them against me.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
(Tell all your friends about me)
Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.

I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me.
And realize how many times I've tried, but that's wishful thinking.
All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.
Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me.

I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me.
(Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me)
(Tell all your friends about me)

And realize how many times I've tried, but that's wishful thinking.
(Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me)
(Tell all your friends about me)

All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.
(Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me)
(Tell all your friends about me)

I hope you choke on every word you spoke, I hope you choke on every word you spoke
(Get me far away, get me far away...)
(Tell all your friends...)

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
(Tell all your friends about me)
Don't (Tell all your friends about me)
hold this against me (Tell all your friends about me)
I've already said I'm sorry (Tell all your friends about me)

lovers and liars...Matchbook Romance.....sooo godamned good..