*epiphany* followed by a huge lightbulb!!!
I am in a co-dependent relationship
My sponsor and I have talked in length and through working my 4th step recently along with in length conversations with some of Matthew's band members.
They are very worried about him and his love addiction to me.
See, he is not an addict or an alcoholic but he has all the ism's...
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I am in a co-dependent relationship
My sponsor and I have talked in length and through working my 4th step recently along with in length conversations with some of Matthew's band members.
They are very worried about him and his love addiction to me.
See, he is not an addict or an alcoholic but he has all the ism's...
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5:58pm-
Getting ready to leave the office, thought I'd drop a quick journal entry.
How was everyone's holiday weekend?
Found out how much my ticket is and had to pay rent today...blah.
Going out with my sponsor later and to a meeting.
Got to talk with my aunt and uncle last night on the phone. Haven't talked to them in ages...they wanted nothing to do...
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Getting ready to leave the office, thought I'd drop a quick journal entry.
How was everyone's holiday weekend?
Found out how much my ticket is and had to pay rent today...blah.
Going out with my sponsor later and to a meeting.
Got to talk with my aunt and uncle last night on the phone. Haven't talked to them in ages...they wanted nothing to do...
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holy_mountain:
Yeah I miss my parents every now and than too. I think all parents miss their children even more than any child misses their parents though.
I just went out with my friends fri. and sat. nite but then they all left to go to their hometown for the rest of the weekend so I was all alone he he.
I just went out with my friends fri. and sat. nite but then they all left to go to their hometown for the rest of the weekend so I was all alone he he.
batattak:
Just keep smiling and doing the right thing...doors will open for you left and right.
*edited to add some
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*edited to add some
[Edited on Jun 01, 2004 7:08PM]
*Added pics to Caveat Emptor and My Matty galleries.*
I am very much excited and anticipating the next couple of weeks. I have finally hooked up with a great photographer and her and I are going to be working together very soon.
She is going to be helping me with a portfolio and with some nice pics to turn into SG.
Yay per me...happy Friday!
I am very much excited and anticipating the next couple of weeks. I have finally hooked up with a great photographer and her and I are going to be working together very soon.
She is going to be helping me with a portfolio and with some nice pics to turn into SG.
Yay per me...happy Friday!
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emjmd:
Good luck on your set. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.
kira:
good luck girlie... 
ok so I've made up my mind to take it easy on the drama aspect in my life and chill out a bit. A lot is not within my control and I must remember it's god's will, not my own.
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1stxer:
sometimes a person needs to stand still and allow god to do the steering in that vehicle of life ...
erikawithak:
i hope things are getting better for you!!
i hope things are getting better for you!! 
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1stxer:
I think you should find some new renters
darthsmurf:
The best way to deal with people who piss you off is to hire ninjas to load their sock drawer with moldy Spam while they sleep.
Works wonders.
Works wonders.
Wow...it's 5:30pm already!!!
The computer had me sucked in for hours.
OK so the dillema yesterday I have prayed about and wrote about and I went to meeting last night and spoke about it, that helped.
I also spoke with my sponsor and grandsponsor...I love them sooooooo much.
I miss Matt....funny he's been at my place for the last week sick with mono and yes...
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The computer had me sucked in for hours.
OK so the dillema yesterday I have prayed about and wrote about and I went to meeting last night and spoke about it, that helped.
I also spoke with my sponsor and grandsponsor...I love them sooooooo much.
I miss Matt....funny he's been at my place for the last week sick with mono and yes...
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frenum:
fuck the factory.... i got kicked out of that place for moshing... wtf
kicked out of a metal club for moshing... bastards
kicked out of a metal club for moshing... bastards
rayza666:
Getting kicked out clubs blows!!! Here in sudbury, i never really get kicked out for anything, were sooo hick it hurtz!! about a month ago i passed out at the table during an ACDC cover band, and the bouncer was pouring water on me and drawing on my face, all 500 ppl at the club were laughing at me, and i woke up and totally puked in my drink!!! 
It was totally wicked!!! and then they gave me a free hotel room in the basement of the club and a bunch of strippers from the strip club next door beat the crap out of me and my friends for no reason!!! It was good times!!! later Chandra,
It was totally wicked!!! and then they gave me a free hotel room in the basement of the club and a bunch of strippers from the strip club next door beat the crap out of me and my friends for no reason!!! It was good times!!! later Chandra, Today I am feeling a bit confused and sad.
Without going into the whole story I will try my best to explain...
While I was out drinking and drugging I did some pretty horrible stuff. One of which was cheating several times on Matt. Well his bandmates knew the whole story while I was out there on my run and they were pretty upset to...
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Without going into the whole story I will try my best to explain...
While I was out drinking and drugging I did some pretty horrible stuff. One of which was cheating several times on Matt. Well his bandmates knew the whole story while I was out there on my run and they were pretty upset to...
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beedlebaum:
Best advice i can give is to treat it like a joke...just like the one you made on the site.
It'll show that you've become a bigger person(friends could see the hostility as 'the old you'...even if that is unjustified), and it might make great inroads towards a better friendship with your boyfriends friends.
Sometimes its hard for the friends to accept the person who they think has done their buddy harm, even if he(matt)can see that you've changed....those guys don't get to see that side of you.
I know i don't know you, but i think its good advice, ive been in those situations(and, not to bum you out, but this shit may go on for a while).
It'll show that you've become a bigger person(friends could see the hostility as 'the old you'...even if that is unjustified), and it might make great inroads towards a better friendship with your boyfriends friends.
Sometimes its hard for the friends to accept the person who they think has done their buddy harm, even if he(matt)can see that you've changed....those guys don't get to see that side of you.
I know i don't know you, but i think its good advice, ive been in those situations(and, not to bum you out, but this shit may go on for a while).
erikawithak:
they suck.
yes we could cuddle and spoon.
i hope things get better and that your boyfriend feels better too
yes we could cuddle and spoon.
i hope things get better and that your boyfriend feels better too
So the show on Saturday was spactacular!!!
I got to meet the guys from Adema and got Marky C's John Handcock.
btw...he's fuckin' HOT HOT HOT!
So Matt's throat thing has been getting worse and after the show on Saturday his throat was almost completely swollen shut. We got a ride to the hospital yesterday and the doctor said he has mono. He wanted him...
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I got to meet the guys from Adema and got Marky C's John Handcock.
btw...he's fuckin' HOT HOT HOT!
So Matt's throat thing has been getting worse and after the show on Saturday his throat was almost completely swollen shut. We got a ride to the hospital yesterday and the doctor said he has mono. He wanted him...
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dickiev:
It's amazing how quickly the people who love us, yet we hurt so bad, are willing to help and support us when we are doing the right thing again.
chipawah:
Request received. And, added you are!
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oki:
i played that penguin game. it's awesome
marquismark:
30 minutes later...I'm still playing that game!
I have the official copy of Caveat Emptors debut album An Air You've Yet To Taste
Go to Caveat Emptor to listen and come out to Club Ovation in Boynton Beach @ 5pm for good music, free stuff and to get your very own copy of the cd.
Go to Caveat Emptor to listen and come out to Club Ovation in Boynton Beach @ 5pm for good music, free stuff and to get your very own copy of the cd.
neyrissa:
Hehe, I'm broke too...
i have black hair. i'll be posting pics soon enough.
hope things get better with matt. my mattias and i merge and purge, repeat. he's introvertive.
love is obsession. there has to be some reliance.