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chandrajudithann

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Wednesday Jun 23, 2004

Jun 23, 2004
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So last ight was drama central at the stirling room.
Sara is back in the hospital for her 2nd suicide attempt. She cut herself and took whole bottles of pills. Dana and I keep telling her she needs to do a 5th step like NOW!!!
You don't re-hash shit from the past and just sit on it. I'm sorry but as much as we all love Sara to death she is being so damm selfish. She calls everyone over to her house just so she can contemplate either cutting or suicide. I know your granmother passed away and I know that is difficult for you but life goes on darling and it's time to deal with your past!
Evy is up to her eyeballs in Sara's drama and being sick herself she broke down in last nights meeting. She is really scred that she is going to lose Sara and I hate to see her so sick physically and having to waste so much energy on someone other than herself.
Michelle drank again last night, in front of the stirling room. She blamed her drinking on AA and her sponsor Dana, also my sponsor. Dana was very upset about Sara when Michelle and I got to the room and Dana had just gotten sick in the bathroom. I went off on Dana for not calling me, not knowing what had happened with Sara, she took me outside and got in my face emotionally. Realizing what was going on I was able to understand why Dana couldn't be there for her pigeons. Michelle could not see outside herself and was off to the farm store down the street before we could bat an eyelash.
Matt and Michelle both drank together the other night and Andy also re-lapsed. Matt and Michelle did pick up white chips at the Broward Club.
We love Michelle but obviously she is not ready to get sober, when she is ready we will all be here for her.
Dana appologized to me after the meeting and I had already forgiven her. Thats the beauty of sobriety for me today. I am able to look outside my own selfish desires and motives, getting out of ME and looking at the big picture. I worry about Dana when I don't hear from her so I was concerned and I got angry.
I got 2 new sister sponsee's last night Jackie(4years) & Tara(1 week) YAY...the family unit is growing! They both are dolls and seem to be vert enthusiastic about sobriety and AA.
I'm very proud of myself and how I chose NOT to react to the chaos around me yesterday night. I was able to remove myself from everyones drama and get my much needed meeting in.
smile
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holy_mountain:
Wow that's a tough situation. Good to know that you're still doing well though. smile
Jun 23, 2004
mythicus:
*uses yoda voice* in this one the force is strong wink forgive me for being such a nerd. i wish i could always avoid drama, but if life got too easy we'd all be really bored. i hope everything works out. smile
Jun 23, 2004

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