chandrajudithann

I got my car out of the tow yard. $188.00 and my boss even helped me with the money. He said the car is mine to do with what I want but there is not much I can do.
It's going to cost thousands of dollars to fix and the car is not even worth that much money.
The hardest thing about this whole thing is that people are saying it's just a car but that car meant so much more to me. It was a symbol of my sobriety. I worked so hard ot get a car and it really fell into my lap when I first got sober. I was so shocked and at the same time elated. It felt like ad ream really and now it feels like the dream is all over.
I don't have money to fix it or get another used car.
I'm not going to drink or drug over this but I'm asking God WHY? I don't believe that everything happens for a reason, sometimes shit just happens.
I do, however know that I should be dead. That car is trashed and I walked away with bruises and burns. It was not my time...and for that I should be grateful.