Bloated and bleeding to death...the red man cometh...yuck! 
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It's so amamzing how one little phrase, word, look, gesture, statement could make or break your day.
Most people are really not aware of how much of a differernce they can make...for better...or for worse.
I must admit that others do have an effect on me today and that I am not invincible...I am human.
I love you all, thank you for taking the time...
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Most people are really not aware of how much of a differernce they can make...for better...or for worse.
I must admit that others do have an effect on me today and that I am not invincible...I am human.
I love you all, thank you for taking the time...
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lithium_picnic:
finding apnea attractive = a gold star
telling apnea you want to have sex with her = a paddlin
telling apnea you want to have sex with her = a paddlin
cage_e:
contact me 
confusion
confusion sets in and i am left inside my own sick skin
i am left with the sickness and nothing to numb with
i am my own worst nightmare
this reeling and whirling is making me dizzy my skin crawls
i shake for fear of what might be
my head will not let me be
i wish to be complete
i thought i would...
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confusion sets in and i am left inside my own sick skin
i am left with the sickness and nothing to numb with
i am my own worst nightmare
this reeling and whirling is making me dizzy my skin crawls
i shake for fear of what might be
my head will not let me be
i wish to be complete
i thought i would...
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mikezoolander:
Here's Hoping all went well this weekend for ya......Go go new week start now.......(cue Muisc )........ 
katie:
you have the cutest little nose ever!
So it's over between matt and I, officially.
I have been trying so hard to live a lie and I'm so tired of pretending.
I know he's not being honest with me. Between the pot I found in my place the other week and the pictures I saw of him stoned off his ass.
...and the journal entry....
Why can't he just be honest? I...
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I have been trying so hard to live a lie and I'm so tired of pretending.
I know he's not being honest with me. Between the pot I found in my place the other week and the pictures I saw of him stoned off his ass.
...and the journal entry....
Why can't he just be honest? I...
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emjmd:
Hey. Hope things are going okay today. Had to laugh a little when I saw your new pic. I have that same poster hanging on my wall.
Have a great weekend.
Have a great weekend.
oso:
sorry that had to happen, but you know you gotta what's best for you.
wish i'd been smart enough to do the same back when i was clean & sober.
wish i'd been smart enough to do the same back when i was clean & sober.
Added pics to chandra folder-they are SILLY stupid to say the least.
Thank god neither me nor brian are professionals.
We'll leave the serious stuff for them, thank you very much.
ps-also added pics to friends and caveat emptor folders so check them out too.
Thank god neither me nor brian are professionals.
We'll leave the serious stuff for them, thank you very much.
ps-also added pics to friends and caveat emptor folders so check them out too.
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guillaume:
we're going to have a pants off party on june 28th... you wish you were there, DO YOU?? 
caddi56:
FAVORITE SEXUAL POSITION: *gushing*
could it be ?
could it be ?
Hey guys...
I need some new tunes to listen to at work. Everythings getting old really fast.
Gimme your reccomendations...anything you like or you think I will like.
My brain won't work so I'm counting on yours.
Thx.
I need some new tunes to listen to at work. Everythings getting old really fast.
Gimme your reccomendations...anything you like or you think I will like.
My brain won't work so I'm counting on yours.
Thx.
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desmobile:
the new slipknot.
batattak:
Here's some stuff I've been listening to lately.
Skitsystem - Frtrd Av Smrta from the album Enkel Resa Till rnnstenen
Raised Fist - New Direction from their album Ignoring The Guidelines
Srou pa Letu - Dost Mam from my label's latest CD.
(shameless plug...I know I know)
Skitsystem - Frtrd Av Smrta from the album Enkel Resa Till rnnstenen
Raised Fist - New Direction from their album Ignoring The Guidelines
Srou pa Letu - Dost Mam from my label's latest CD.
(shameless plug...I know I know)
So I have another prospective photographer.
My sponsors friends friend is a photographer and wants to shoot pic's of me for his portfolio.
Tiffany and I are still schedulled to shoot within' the next couple weeks.
I was going to go with her and her friend this weekend to watch her take pics and see what it's all about but plans fell through at the...
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My sponsors friends friend is a photographer and wants to shoot pic's of me for his portfolio.
Tiffany and I are still schedulled to shoot within' the next couple weeks.
I was going to go with her and her friend this weekend to watch her take pics and see what it's all about but plans fell through at the...
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caddi56:
toes crossed too !
mythicus:
GOOD LUCK! GOOD LUCK! GOOD LUCK!
i'm sure everything will work out just fine
GOOD LUCK! GOOD LUCK! GOOD LUCK!
i'm sure everything will work out just fine
*epiphany* followed by a huge lightbulb!!!
I am in a co-dependent relationship
My sponsor and I have talked in length and through working my 4th step recently along with in length conversations with some of Matthew's band members.
They are very worried about him and his love addiction to me.
See, he is not an addict or an alcoholic but he has all the ism's...
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I am in a co-dependent relationship
My sponsor and I have talked in length and through working my 4th step recently along with in length conversations with some of Matthew's band members.
They are very worried about him and his love addiction to me.
See, he is not an addict or an alcoholic but he has all the ism's...
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wardy:
You like Emo now??
i have black hair. i'll be posting pics soon enough.
hope things get better with matt. my mattias and i merge and purge, repeat. he's introvertive.
love is obsession. there has to be some reliance.
i have black hair. i'll be posting pics soon enough.
hope things get better with matt. my mattias and i merge and purge, repeat. he's introvertive.
love is obsession. there has to be some reliance.
oki:
well your not in denial anymore which is a good thing. if both party's are willing and mature seek some counseling. and in my personal opinion it takes 2 to be co-dependent. somebody's gotta feed into the others shit. good luck and keep it honest. don't give something a shot that does'nt have a shot just for the sake of keeping the familiar. thanks for sharing i get alot out of your honesty.
chandrajudithann:
whether near or far
5:58pm-
Getting ready to leave the office, thought I'd drop a quick journal entry.
How was everyone's holiday weekend?
Found out how much my ticket is and had to pay rent today...blah.
Going out with my sponsor later and to a meeting.
Got to talk with my aunt and uncle last night on the phone. Haven't talked to them in ages...they wanted nothing to do...
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Getting ready to leave the office, thought I'd drop a quick journal entry.
How was everyone's holiday weekend?
Found out how much my ticket is and had to pay rent today...blah.
Going out with my sponsor later and to a meeting.
Got to talk with my aunt and uncle last night on the phone. Haven't talked to them in ages...they wanted nothing to do...
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holy_mountain:
Yeah I miss my parents every now and than too. I think all parents miss their children even more than any child misses their parents though.
I just went out with my friends fri. and sat. nite but then they all left to go to their hometown for the rest of the weekend so I was all alone he he.
I just went out with my friends fri. and sat. nite but then they all left to go to their hometown for the rest of the weekend so I was all alone he he.
batattak:
Just keep smiling and doing the right thing...doors will open for you left and right.
*edited to add some
[Edited on Jun 01, 2004 7:08PM]
*edited to add some
[Edited on Jun 01, 2004 7:08PM]
*Added pics to Caveat Emptor and My Matty galleries.*
I am very much excited and anticipating the next couple of weeks. I have finally hooked up with a great photographer and her and I are going to be working together very soon.
She is going to be helping me with a portfolio and with some nice pics to turn into SG.
Yay per me...happy Friday!
I am very much excited and anticipating the next couple of weeks. I have finally hooked up with a great photographer and her and I are going to be working together very soon.
She is going to be helping me with a portfolio and with some nice pics to turn into SG.
Yay per me...happy Friday!
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emjmd:
Good luck on your set. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.
kira:
good luck girlie... 
ok so I've made up my mind to take it easy on the drama aspect in my life and chill out a bit. A lot is not within my control and I must remember it's god's will, not my own.
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1stxer:
sometimes a person needs to stand still and allow god to do the steering in that vehicle of life ...
erikawithak:
i hope things are getting better for you!!
i hope things are getting better for you!!
i hope you feel better soon.