Getting swept off my feet by somebody new was entirely the last thing I was expecting to occur in my life right now... especially given the potency and ache of my feelings as of late for someone else.
I was resigned to spend the next few months in a form of resolute heartache, doing all I could to move on from feelings for somebody that could never be, while holding on dearly to every wonderful shared feeling between us that could. While in this pursuit I am still determined, I wasn't expecting to be feeling the flutters in my heart, and butterflies in my stomach of new and budding romance.
I am at an unfamiliar point in my life... I am not used to this... to feel so smitten out of the blue by somebody I am only truly now beginning to know. Though I don't know what our relationship will evolve to, if it evolves to anything, that she pierces right into my heart and soul, is so kind to me, and willing to share the beauty of her heart with me... all the while making me feel at ease in my vulnerability... I... I find myself at a loss for words. I haven't felt this way for so, sooo long.
I will see her again in March, if only for a day and night. The physical tension between us is growing stronger every day, and it's becoming hard to bear.
Distance is a barrier, though one that isn't completely insurmountable. Even if distance keeps us from ever being more than long-distance friends, I'm really hoping that we can share something beautiful between us... if only for the moments that we can.
All the years I knew her, I never truly knew who she was. Now our knowledge of each other grows by the day. While my heart still aches for what will never be, my heart now yearns, with cautious and hopeful trepidation, for what could.
