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let me play among the stars


i know, its not a real video, you anime watchers.
it's all mecha-core



so, life. it happens.
my mom was released from the hospital last thursday. friday night, she went back to the emergency room. she is still there. she doesnt know when they will release her...they are trying to figure it out...it's like, her body is fighting an infection, with the high temperatures...but the temp is getting too high and not ceasing. so they are trying to find something that could be infected, so she is going through xrays, mris, etc. also, her liver enzymes are low. >.> whatever that means.
it snowed lots last night and my son woke me up to tell me he had to play in it. i tired to keep him inside for as long as possible, so it'd warm a bit. i got to see wall-e this afternoon. it was so good and sweet and adorable. i kept tearing up. i'm a mush with too much going on, so everything makes me cry. i cry watching heroes.
i cleaned weird things today, like the stovetop.
like, pulling off the pieces, scrubbing , lifting, moving.
don't ask.
i feel very foolish at times. i am very foolish at times. it's part of being alive, i guess. oh well.
i miss adrian so much. it makes me upset as is and then, with all my crappy stressed on top, i'm on edge all the time.

being so in love and unable to hug or kiss them. to feel their hand brush your face. hear them talk to you, even if its pointless rambling. i just want him here with me.
sheena can be a sadface
adrian makes her a happyface
even if it isnt the most visible.

<3
fill my heart with song and let me sing forever more
cause you are all i love for, all i worship and adore.