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Feb 17, 2009 6:47p.m.
God Help Us All! Or only some of us...
I have no internet. Help me.
I just did the dishes and my mother who has been bedridden for over a month now has become more mobile. Yay...I kinda want her to lay back down and go back to not annoying me, since all she does is heckle and harass when she is concious and able to interfer with my day-to-day life. Now, she is sitting in the living room, tv turned up to ear-bleeding status, and watching some religious program with some old woman that is rocking a piercing voice. >.< WTF? My mom has never been religious and here she is watching this pile of crap. She has rebelled against religion since she was a little girl. She renounced her religion(Jehovah's Witness) when she was young and they had to drag her up and down the aisles kicking and screaming... She thought about Buddhism, because I was interested a few years ago. No-go on that one, too. She is only religious about her feng shui and her damn vines that grow all over the house...and now she sits, watching some old bat w a turkey neck hoot and holler about religion.
I was not expecting this kind of outcome from her illness. It is always the weak and ill that turn to God. Interesting, since most religious people will say that that same group tends to turn towards Satan. You aren't going to get retribution, if it is available, because you were at one of your weakest moments and you finally decided to seek it out.
I see such selfishness as undeserving.
I believe you can only deserve such a thing if you are at your strongest and using you will to help not only yourself.
I'm not even religious. I'm too confused all the time to be.

Umm...well, I'm counterbalancing the television's prayers with grindcore. If that helps.


Feb. 19, 2009 1:34a.m.
It's still the 19th, to me, but whatever...I like to be whatever
WHATEVER
I hate not having the internet. I'm happy I was able to d/l seasons 1-3 of abfab(i was a third of the way through season 4 ), every season of It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia and season 1 of Heroes...I have things I can stare at, though I havent been watching Heroes cause I was watching that with Adrian(Sorry for pushing my opinions!! <3)
I get to wake up super early tomorrow and play taxi, since my mother is still unable to drive herself. She has also been throwing up everything...and she keeps getting restless cause her body is tired of being in bed all day, so she shuffles around and walks in circles while I'm in the living room. I want to trip her. Is that a bad thing? Pfffft
I'm trying to get my son on more of a schedule...I've been putting him to bed at the same time for the passed few nights and when he gets used to it, I'm going to cut it down so he goes to bed earlier. I have to retrain him, since my mother isn't very motherly and kind of let him do as he pleased. I think I may throw him outside to play tomorrow, if it isn't raining like it was today. He has waaaaay too much energy.
Oh yea...I started doing mini-workouts...which include me reading while doing weird crunches and i want to start ont he treadmill tomorrow. My belly is sore today! YAY! Oh yeah, I measured the waist when I was able to locate it in the fat pudges, I'm measuring in at 28inches...but that doesnt count the love handles and girl-y belly that sucks buttholes. Those are my targets. I also did my hips.....*whistles* 38inches....*horf* My bras are like a 36. So, yea...Good ol' hourglass figure, in the flesh. Rarest body shape, actually. *pats self on back* That's the only good thing I have going for myself.
Oh, I cut my bangs. I have been keeping them long-ish, but I was reading the Bettie Bangs thread a few days back, and I decided I wanted to go back to that. It also goes along with how I want my hair to look when it is longer. It also fits my afro a lot better. Yes, Afro Sheena is rocking out and stuff and looking cutesy. I'm going back to the baby doll look...I guess people can start saying I look like a baby and a doll and I'll just give them the finger behind their back. Whatever. It's cute. I'm not quite sexy, I look about 15years old, so...why fight it. I may also get some floral dresses to set my thing of. Or not.
My friend told me AMR is hiring, starting at 15/hr...I think I may bite the bullet and go with them. I hate working transport, but...maybe I can work at nights for them, not as many stinky old people...I'm going to go do my crunch-ies and read some more. Thank God I have this book...I've been working on it for a while now, because I havent paid it much mind, but now I'm flying through it...IT a la the King. I wanna meet that man one day. As I tell everyone, I want to eat his brains and steal his abilities to write. That, or I could practice my brains more. I wrote something last night...I don't know what it was...a poem/story hybrid. I have to re-write and edit and blend and see what I crap out. I figured I should work on my writing since I don't have much to do. ok. i'm off. xoxo

Feb. 19, 2009 10:59p.m.
le loup-garou
Today...hmmm...Adrian didn't get the messages I sent him, so he was worried about me. He and Amanda were both calling me to see if I was alive. I'm embarassed. I've felt like poo so I've been sleeping a lot. I went to a job fair today, where I bumped into Shavon and her dad, aka Dad. He's so awesome. We used to sit and eat a ton and talk about the Harry Potter books >.< We talked a bit, she and I agreed that it blowed donkey balls. I walked around a bit more and bumped into my cousin's girlfriend. Then I had to go see my cousins....I haven't seen them in years and they used to live 2 houses away. They didnt even know that I was just living in Miami. Awesome.
ANYWAYS
I went up to the south jersey healthcare table, since that is the company I've been harassing with applications...and the lady and I were chitchatting and when I told her I've been applying like crazy, she asked my name and told me she remembered my name cause it rhymes(?I don't think so, but it's a cute, weird name, I guess) and she said that she emailed me recently about an interview...I was ready to bounce and check my email, which, to even do is like breaking my fingernails off, since my internet failz atm...so I was able to finagle checking my email, checked my facebook, checked on SG, where someone asked about my story in response to a post I made, which I was quite passionate about...and yea...wrote Adrian, cause I miss him sooooooo much
"I have come to rob all the women.....rape all the men.....and learn to do the Peppermint Twist." Stephen King is awesome
I'm going to watch some stuff and read some more, cause that's all I can do. bleh.


omg. i got the webz back!