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I am alive. I promise. Adrian and I had an awesome little departure from reality. We hid out in Orlando and Kissimmee for almost 3wks. We were all kissy face and stuff. I loved every moment of it. This morning we went to the airport to send Adrian home and I kept wanting to cry on the way there. Fucking hard to have someone you love and adore so much have to leave and go far away again!!! anyways, while we were there, i called my mom, who i have been having some problems with lately...and...well, if you are a smart little egghead, you will notice, I am no longer in florida, I departed from Orlando Int'l Airport within a small period after Adrian and headed to NJ!! Yeeeaaaaaa,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, I learned to hate Florida. A lot. I didn't feel safe. Adrian would walk outside and I'd wanna pull him back in cause I thought he was going to get stabbed. People always hit on me. We almost got ran over when some guy in a truck tried to sell us drugs. WEIRD. Yea...so, all i want to do right now is get working. hardcore. no breaks except to sleep kind of work. i hate NJ and i want to be out of here by my birthday at the latest...or something else. I don't know exactly where I want to go, but ... I'm going...
I will try and pop into chat, like i did tonight. i don't know where the cam went for this computer, so, use your imaginations.
and
i miss my adrian.
<3