i went 3 days without cigarettes....and i was constantly bitchy and making fights...so
i decided to buy a pack.
i've smoked like 5 for the day ive had them. i havent finished any one of them. just kinda felt like crap afterwards. at least it wasnt the whole pack like usual...
i'm going to try again once this one i gone. and i'm going to limit myself like hell.....
even if i can just learn to limit myself and keep at 5 a day....i wont be as upset w myself as if i kept smoking a pack a day.
i am pretty upset w myself for buying another pack.
i feel hella lame.
oh wait...i gots to send a shout out to _Zeus_, my chicken nugget.... She had her baby and her latest blog has pictures!!! EVERYONE needs to go take a peek and tell her how beautiful her baby, Isabella Danger, is. She's so adorable. I wanna have a baby now.
crap. looking at babies always does this to me. It's like me saying, everytime I was those documentaries on a couple who have 14 kids, I wanna be them. I don't want to be them....but....I wanna have more babies....MORE!! Cute little tattooed babies. With my dashing good looks. 
I wanna grow my hair out. I need my long hair back. I keep chopping it all off. its just....there is no good shape to it atm....or...before i mean. and i needed to cut the black out. cause i wanna lighten it and not look like a piece of trash, ya know? i'd rock wigs, but i don't want my brains to get too hot.
i babysat the puppy last night and he slept in my bed. i couldnt sleep to solidly once the sun came up cause i kept thinking he was going to pee in my bed. he didn't cause he was good and he just kept wanting to kiss me and sleep lodged under me....which left me in one position most of the night. i eventually got up at like 7am and took him pee and then we played for a bit. he wants to eat my ears or something. not fun to wake up to. anyways
ANYWAYS.
i'm done with all of this writing. i'm distracted. by a human. by a boy. that i wanna kiss all over and over and over again.
i am missing your face at the moment. DUH! loves you!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYONE NEEDS TO PLAY MU WITH ME
HTTP://WWW.GLOBALMUONLINE.COM
do it.
i decided to buy a pack.
i've smoked like 5 for the day ive had them. i havent finished any one of them. just kinda felt like crap afterwards. at least it wasnt the whole pack like usual...
i'm going to try again once this one i gone. and i'm going to limit myself like hell.....
even if i can just learn to limit myself and keep at 5 a day....i wont be as upset w myself as if i kept smoking a pack a day.
i am pretty upset w myself for buying another pack.
i feel hella lame.
oh wait...i gots to send a shout out to _Zeus_, my chicken nugget.... She had her baby and her latest blog has pictures!!! EVERYONE needs to go take a peek and tell her how beautiful her baby, Isabella Danger, is. She's so adorable. I wanna have a baby now.
crap. looking at babies always does this to me. It's like me saying, everytime I was those documentaries on a couple who have 14 kids, I wanna be them. I don't want to be them....but....I wanna have more babies....MORE!! Cute little tattooed babies. With my dashing good looks. I wanna grow my hair out. I need my long hair back. I keep chopping it all off. its just....there is no good shape to it atm....or...before i mean. and i needed to cut the black out. cause i wanna lighten it and not look like a piece of trash, ya know? i'd rock wigs, but i don't want my brains to get too hot.
i babysat the puppy last night and he slept in my bed. i couldnt sleep to solidly once the sun came up cause i kept thinking he was going to pee in my bed. he didn't cause he was good and he just kept wanting to kiss me and sleep lodged under me....which left me in one position most of the night. i eventually got up at like 7am and took him pee and then we played for a bit. he wants to eat my ears or something. not fun to wake up to. anyways
ANYWAYS.
i'm done with all of this writing. i'm distracted. by a human. by a boy. that i wanna kiss all over and over and over again.
i am missing your face at the moment. DUH! loves you!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYONE NEEDS TO PLAY MU WITH ME
HTTP://WWW.GLOBALMUONLINE.COM
do it.
skullgrid:
5 a day is still better than a whole pack. if anything you should congratulate yourself, not berate yourself. that's still way better than i did on my first few tries 
skullgrid:
yeah swimming = baaaaaaad. you should know better