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Ahhh sobriety my new friend.

Nothing is new, I feel strange not inebriated. It feels wrong somehow. I am not my jovial (drunken) self. I feel like someone different. Strangely however, I have a new found patience and calm that I have never felt before. Almost like a steady feeling of relaxation. Who knows if it will last, but I hope I can at least get some use out of it before it dissapears.

It is very early sunday morning right now. Listening to The Pattern, and getting ready to lay awake in bed for several more hours. At least when I was drunk I could go to sleep (ie: pass out) Now I have to wait untill my eyes close and the world fades away.... not fair!

Untill next time, I will be thinking of you my blond haired bartender, and you too my young brunnete Fante fan, also my new friend from the sex chat room.. hopefully one of the above will make out with me sooner or later. And of course there is you, my only true love. Hopefully you will want me back, soon. I miss you.

Goodnight world.

I am Jack's heavy eye lids.