ceres

-I declare war, acacia strain and white chapel tomorrow night. fuck yes - i'm so excited. come find me and introduce yourself if you're there? next month is A Day to Remember and Bring Me The Horizon. YES! I love live music, aspecially hardcore and metal. mmmmm sweaty people everwhere. It's like an ear orgy.

-and then monday is my 19TH BIRTHDAY! I made reservasions for my friends and i to have a sit down dinner. I'm very excited. I'm not one for drinking (for those of you who aren't from B.C. or do not know the legal drinking age - it's 19 years of age) I've been to bars because naturally i am friends with people older than myself but nothing about a bar is all that appealing to me. I might go to watch the Canucks and have a beer but that's probably the only time you'd find me in a bar.
Last year for my birthday i had a bonfire in the Bog. I got so drunk i lost my skirt. (later i found that it was still around my waist.) drunk. It was nice but the next morning was my actual birthday and i woke to my boyfriend who didn't say one word to me about my birthday. No happy birthday, no card no nothing. hmf. I don't need presents, but cards are nice and if not then at least with me a happy birthday.... but he didn't. I was angry but more so just upset. I didn't say anything though. After a few months went by, i mentioned it. he instantly felt horrible. so did i. maybe about two months ago he gave me a birthday card. it was sweat - not because it was the card but just because he really did feel bad and wanted me to know that he was a complete jackass. hmmm. I love him.
This will be the second birthday that i'm going to have without my dad to call me and wish me a happy birthday. (i never really got to see him on my birthday because my parents split and he worked often but the phone call was what i looked forward to most) I hate the thought of it and i hate the thought that i will have many more birthdays without at least his voice on the other end of the telephone.

-right now richard and alysha and marshall are all outside freezing their asses off smoking a doob. not for me either. not with my anxiety. whatever! I get to sit inside and be warm and listen to their conversation through the window.

-random fact about me: I love the ocean. I'm sure i was born in the ocean and i'm sure i'll die in it - or at least on the sea side. BUT i can't watch television programs/movies that have underwater shots in the merky ocean. it makes my skin crawl. i don't know why.


well... I'm going to go to Marshall's girlsfriend's new house and hang out with everyone. Have a good night my little SGers.

xo Ceres