ugh. I'm not a happy camper right now at all.
I'm sitting here at home, in the worst mood ever - all because of anxiety.
I could be out bowling with the fine ladies of SG but i'm too fucking screwed up to get a fucking skytrain and meet up with them. if i hadn't of failed my N driving test the other day I would be there right now bowling and loving all of them. ugh. fml. As strong as i can say i am or as well as i think i can handle my anxiety there is no beating it when it comes to skytrains. skytrains always have been and always will be just one of those things that i can't manage. i've come so far with my anxious being but when i get to something like this i feel like a complete fucking failure.
bye. im going to go cry and feel like an idiot.
I'm sitting here at home, in the worst mood ever - all because of anxiety.
I could be out bowling with the fine ladies of SG but i'm too fucking screwed up to get a fucking skytrain and meet up with them. if i hadn't of failed my N driving test the other day I would be there right now bowling and loving all of them. ugh. fml. As strong as i can say i am or as well as i think i can handle my anxiety there is no beating it when it comes to skytrains. skytrains always have been and always will be just one of those things that i can't manage. i've come so far with my anxious being but when i get to something like this i feel like a complete fucking failure.
bye. im going to go cry and feel like an idiot.
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Stop crying and don't feel like an idiot.
People have different fears, different strokes for different folks. My brother & sis-in-law have a house rule: he kills all the spiders & she kills all the snakes. She screams like a little girls when she sees a spider and he does the same to snakes.
If you can work at it slowly, you can overcome it. I used to hate heights. The ladder would shake violently underneath me just because of my legs shaking. People tend to call me a "monkey boy" now-a-days when they see me run up ladders or across roof lines (He looks like a little monkey running up that ladder!)