Happy birthday. and hang in there. it is times like this when to breathe fresh air. everyone goes through a bad patch in their marriage. if you feel you have missed something, go over those times you were at your best with him. and a big hug for both of you.
It sounds like you know what you want to do but are scared of living with the decision.
I was in a similar place a little while ago, I took the plunge and have acheived a lot since I can't promise that it'll be the same for you but I do know if you try to deny what you know is true, you'll never be happy. Its damn hard but you won't be all alone.
Well let's all hope nothing rotten happens dear. Seems like you've got a few tough decisions to make and I wish I could help, sounds like there's only one person who can though. You know we're here if you need anyone to talk to. xxx
Most people Do not realise what is their own backyard, Australia has a lot of problems, that it needs to solve. And like most countries in the world it has its own pettiness to iron out before it should fix other peoples problems.
THE FAIRY OAK OF CORRIEWATER
The small bird's head is under its wing,
The deep sleeps on the grass,
The moon comes out, and the stars shine down,
The dew gleams like glass:
There is no sound in the world so wide,
Save the sound of the smitten brass,
With the merry cittern and the pipe
Of the fairies as they pass
But oh! the fir maun burn and burn,
And the hour is gone, and will never return.
The green hill cleaves, and forth, with a bound,
Comes elf and elvin steed;
The moon dives down in a golden cloud,
The stars grow dim with dread;
But light is running along the earth,
So of heaven,s they have no need:
O'er moor and and moss with a shout they pass,
And the word is spur and speed-
But the fire maun burn, and I maun quake,
And the hour is gone that will never come back.
this one is also quite long, from a old scottish fairy tale caled Elphin Irving.
Have a book on scottish fairy tales, doesn't seem to have, the fairy flag . Goes from Thomas the Rhymer to The Fairy boy of Leith to The haunted ships.
(and good luck with the above)
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