this entire past week has been, for the most part, amazing. things got off to a very bad start, as any week kicking off with an unexpected breakup would. after the breakup, however, life made a total 180 (karmic debts being paid off?). whatever it was, i received academic confirmation, a completely unexpected privately-funded scholarship, alleviated housing worries on-campus next year (yay!), and lots and lots of interaction with really beautiful people.
of course i have made a few decisions that were probably not conducive to my health or sanity. i have made myself a personal memo that i am always to remember: try not to get too ridiculously inebriated, and oh dear god, never go to the splendid buffet restaurant, where the chinese food is certainly not splendid.
also i think something in my mind has clicked regarding someone i have known for a while. i wonder if anything will ever come of this. i not-so-secretly hope so.
anyway, i have forty minutes before my next class, and i need to shower and am starving. instead, i am updating my SG journal. i also have tons of reading to do, but i'd rather be watching "veronica mars" with keytin.
shower still wins out over food. off to acquire characteristics of cleanliness.
edit: so regarding that person with whom something clicked - something did click, and then he decided he didn't really want it. why is this a running theme in my life? and on another note, maybe i am just spoiled, but it has been a little too long since i have so much as made out with someone. realizing this and my newfound undesirability has put me in a slightly bad mood. i wish that there was someone around, a not-too-close friend, who i could have a casual affectionate relationship with since i am a cuddle-and-cuteness whore. too bad i fuck those up too. i've realized where i stand with relationships and i don't stand a chance, so i've given up and am going for what i can get.
so right now, i wish i could mess around with an attractive male. or eat chocolate. stupid fucking periods and their looming arrivals...
of course i have made a few decisions that were probably not conducive to my health or sanity. i have made myself a personal memo that i am always to remember: try not to get too ridiculously inebriated, and oh dear god, never go to the splendid buffet restaurant, where the chinese food is certainly not splendid.
also i think something in my mind has clicked regarding someone i have known for a while. i wonder if anything will ever come of this. i not-so-secretly hope so.
anyway, i have forty minutes before my next class, and i need to shower and am starving. instead, i am updating my SG journal. i also have tons of reading to do, but i'd rather be watching "veronica mars" with keytin.
shower still wins out over food. off to acquire characteristics of cleanliness.
edit: so regarding that person with whom something clicked - something did click, and then he decided he didn't really want it. why is this a running theme in my life? and on another note, maybe i am just spoiled, but it has been a little too long since i have so much as made out with someone. realizing this and my newfound undesirability has put me in a slightly bad mood. i wish that there was someone around, a not-too-close friend, who i could have a casual affectionate relationship with since i am a cuddle-and-cuteness whore. too bad i fuck those up too. i've realized where i stand with relationships and i don't stand a chance, so i've given up and am going for what i can get.
so right now, i wish i could mess around with an attractive male. or eat chocolate. stupid fucking periods and their looming arrivals...
I appreciate you not lacing into me about my comment, but you are exactly right.
I don't know if I got it across in the post but it is b/c I know I can't handle a living, breathing, inevitably-emotion-and-issue-filled female human that I am ok with just being alone for now.
Also, when are you going to get your tattoo huh?