cereal_killer

lately i've been feeling like i'm not doing what i was meant to do. it's kinda hard to explain, but if you've ever felt it before you know what i'm talking about. it's like somewhere along the line what i was supposed to do was replaced with what i'm stuck doing. what i want more than anything is a fresh start. go somewhere else, do something else. the problem is i don't know how or even where i would go. the only thing i know for certain is that i don't want to be here anymore. i have nothing here. the only thing here is my job and at this point even that wouldn't be enough to keep me here. i want to be closer to my real friends... the ones who put up with all my crap and still love me. i don't have anyone here that i consider a real friend. well, not really anyway. all i do is work to make money to pay for things i don't need... or to pay back debts that i got myself into when i was in college and stupid and used credit to buy myself things i didn't need. stupid , stupid trent. so i'm looking for an option that doesn't exist, or at least not at this moment in time. maybe i should just figure out a half assed plan and do it anyway... i'd be happier that's for sure and it wouldn't be like i'd never done anything crazy and assinine in my life before.

breakfast byte: um, yeah, sorry about the ranting. just bummed right now.