cereal_killer

so tomorrow would have been kim and i's 2 year wedding anniversary... tres bizarre... especially since we technically aren't legally seperated. i'm not exactly sure how i feel about that. part of me isn't bothered by it much at all and another part of me wonders if she even remembers (and hopes that she does). i don't like this whole unfinished business thing. i can move on with my life, no problem, but just the fact that i'm technically still married seems to scare off any girl i might be interested in.

part of the reason we stayed legally married was because she is diabetic and couldn't afford her own health insurance. this way she can stay on mine and be able to afford her insulin (without it she would die). thing is as of late there have been several new developments in my life that have kind of forced my hand a little and now the legal seperation needs to be filed. i think it's better this way in the long run anyway. neither of us really harbor any foolish ideas that we might get back together again. we are friends and that's it. my life is a lot less stressful without her around and although somedays i do miss her i don't know if i would want that level of stress back in my life and i think she understands that.

maybe i'll take her out for lunch tomorrow since we usually go out for lunch every other wednesday anyway. i just wish it didn't fall on our anniversary because one of the things i really need to talk to her about is filing for legal seperation. doesn't seem right to do that tomorrow though.

anyway, i'm babbling...