cenerentola

Alright. A sad entry tonight. My mom came home in tears today saying that one of my aunt's (her older sister) lungs had stopped functiong and the other was not going to hold out much longer. My aunt has been sick with cancer for quite a while and she has gotten really bad in the past few months. She's totally paralyzed from medications and was misdiagnosed TWICE by two different doctors. The image that really sticks out in my mind though, was her and my uncle slow-dancing at my cousin Dana's wedding last June. She was so healthy. Her hair had grown back after a particularly nasty chemo regimine and there she was smiling and dancing as if she owned the whole world. To look at her now, you'd never recognize her. I have no idea what to say to my cousins, Chira, Riesa, and Nick. Nick isn't even out of high school, he's only a freshman. It just is inconceivable to me. My mom is planning on telling my grandma tomorrow. How is she ever going to tell a 92 year old woman that she's going to bury her daughter? My grandma has all of her faculties, she's living on her own, basically independant except she doesn't drive. I'm petrified that when my aunt dies, I'll lose Nana, too. I thought she was going to die when my grandfather died 12 years ago. I'm so scared to lose both of them. Either one is going to be hard enough...