My last little contribution to throw back thursday, Im finding myself thinking about Indie a great today. Indie was a woman I was in a long distance relationship with for many years, and who I thought was my soul mate for the longest time It was a less than perfect relationship. I was at school mpst of the time and she was a free spirit who wasn't afraid to be honest about her extensive drug use.
We fought. I was harsh. I found out she cheated on me time and time again qnd one day I got angry and finally ended it with her, until about a month later when her family contacted me and let me know that she had overdosed.
At the time it was crushing and I had no idea how to process tge information. I romanticized her and turned this out, convincing myself that I was the reason she was always cheating and taking drugs, because I was unbearable and could have been better. I've a clearer image of those rimes now, but since then I've never given up on someone who needed me, no matter how selfish about it all I felt.
Is it Wrong?
Is it right to lie and steal
To leave a broken heart to deal
Or should I stay until the end
And help your heart to better mend
Is it so wrong that I left you high
Hope destroyed and left to dry
Your tears an ever-streaming flow
My every word a fatal blow
What’s so wrong with a broken heart
Knowing there was nothing from the start
Should I have stayed and saved the pain
Regrets surrounding like pouring rain
Is it your trust that I have damaged
My attitude in the end so managed
Do you really think I never cared
How in the end your mind has fared
You must really think I have no soul
Is there ever any way to know
You know I was there for you in the end
Now a message of love I’ve come to send
Please understand the pain I feel
This break up for me is all too real
Yet you deserve much more than I
Holding you back from dreams to nigh
So sorry dear, my love so true
You know I never did deserve you
So I let you go, allow you to live
The happy life I could never give.