celluloid

I went thru Lily's page today. I dunno wether to laugh or cry.
Poor fucked up people in this world.
I feel sorry for all of them... Forgetting that I'm one too.
I wish someone would just take my brain away.

I've been contemplating shock therapy - the very thing I feared when I went to the hospital.
I didn't want it done because I didn't want to be a different person.
But somebody killed the person I was.

I should be all like that movie Momento and get a tattoo: "David Roy used me for sex then killed me".

I think I just may.