Much emotions today. Much.
A sense of well being because I feel I am growing more as a person and I every day I am more able to be happy on my own. But also this brings loneliness because of my self-imposed isolation and I feel myself growing distant from my friends. Anxiety because I want this band to work, to actually go somewhere but I know it's little more than a side project for some of us and it won't get much focus. Anger and apprehension at the rumour-mill in the place I work, all the bullshit politics that I just don't want to be a part of but I can't avoid. Exhaustion, from everything, I am well and truly spent and i'm running on empty most of the time. Pride that i've been able to last 10 days as a vegetarian and hope for such future directions and decisions. Gratitude for my family and friends for not adding to any problems I might have and for taking my mind off them whenever possible.
And fear, because i'm scared of being alone.
A sense of well being because I feel I am growing more as a person and I every day I am more able to be happy on my own. But also this brings loneliness because of my self-imposed isolation and I feel myself growing distant from my friends. Anxiety because I want this band to work, to actually go somewhere but I know it's little more than a side project for some of us and it won't get much focus. Anger and apprehension at the rumour-mill in the place I work, all the bullshit politics that I just don't want to be a part of but I can't avoid. Exhaustion, from everything, I am well and truly spent and i'm running on empty most of the time. Pride that i've been able to last 10 days as a vegetarian and hope for such future directions and decisions. Gratitude for my family and friends for not adding to any problems I might have and for taking my mind off them whenever possible.
And fear, because i'm scared of being alone.
Cherry xx