To say I have a love life would be a joke. I'm almost 33 and I have not been in a relationship yet. I haven't even had a casual sexual encounters (my disability poses a problem for random hookups). It's not by choice. It's the biggest disappointment of my life. I try very hard to not be sad or angry about it, and I have for the most part. It just entrenches me further into my solitary life. I'm lucky to have some great family members who love me and take care of me and spend time with me. I have met some awesome people through Facebook and from my internet radio gig, but many of them don't live around me, but I digress. I still live at home with my mother because I can't take care of myself.
So how do I go about dating? I don't work at an office so I have to go out of the house to meet people, which I can't just do at the drop of a hat. I need to be driven places. It is hard for people to hear me when I talk sometimes because of my breathing machinee. Online dating didn't go well because I think some women are scared off by my disability. I can understand their hesitation and it's hard for me not to think about how much of a commitmen being with me would be. At the same time, I know there has to be some woman out there who can see past all that and take a chance with me. I don't have a long life expectancy but nobody knows when they're going to die so why think about it? Just fuck it and live life. I try to do this, as hard as it may be sometimes.
What I need to know is, how do I go about navigating the fucked up world of dating? Is there a woman out there for me? What advice can you give me? Because I'm at a loss here.