cedar

wanna know who i really am?

i listen to sad sad music, and i'm a wacky wacky girl.
i have pajamma dance parties by myself at 2 in the afternoon.
i paint dark things so they don't have to stay in my head.
i'm in love with someone i don't think i'll ever find again.
the sound of an electric guitar through a synthisizer can make me liquify.
when i grow up i want to be stormy.

i can't keep a straight face to save my life.
most of the time i'm thinking about muffins or waffles or shiney things.

i have a serious weakness for tall skinny boys.
most of the time i like the fact that i'm so short.
i have the sense of humor of a five year old.
i act like a five year old.

i think pigtails make great drum sticks.

my nose was broken in second grade.

i still value sex, and think it's a special thing. i just happen to act fairly slutty.
i can't orgasm unless i'm in love.

i have two fish that i constantly forget to feed, yet manage to survive just fine.

i freak out if i miss an episode of the oc.

my three biggest fears in life are pregnancy, abandonment and needles.

i have two step brothers.
i have a psudeo sister, who genetically was supposed to be brown, and genetically i'm supposed to be white.
i have a half brother and a half sister, by my father, that i've never met.....they do not know that i exist.
by blood i am the oldest, and unknown. by marriage and what not i'm the youngest.
i still feel like an only child.

one of my favorite things about my life is that cricket calls me at 1 am to check her e-mail for her.