cedar

what makes you think you can treat people that way?!!
it's not fucking okay.....
it's not okay to lie to me.
it's not okay to keep the truth hidden.
it's not okay to avoid me.
it's not okay to lead me on.
it's not okay to tell me you've stopped seeing other people, when you quite obviously haven't.
it's not okay to say "you'll like me so much more when i'm not working", and then never give me the chance to find out.
it's not okay to start something and not fucking finish it.
it's not okay to send someone through hoops like this.
and it's not fucking okay to start a serious heart-to-heart, not finish it, and then start monogamously dating someone else in 7 days.

i never mind waiting. especially if i'm waiting for something that i was lead to believe i SHOULD wait for. and i especially don't mind waiting, when it seems to be something so worth the wait...for both people.

oh, by the way. the last time i saw you, i went an hour and 45 mins out of my way, on the bus, just so you could fucking eat a real meal. i was supportive. i was understanding. i was honest.

you were a fucking liar and a coward.
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i can't pretend anymore. this really fucking hurts. you should have told me when it started. you should have told me at all.








someone please tell me the truth. for once. anyone.
doesn't matter what the truth is. as long as it's real...