cedar

remember in highschool how you always had 'the best friend'? that girl who was your 'other'. you shared everything. you lived at her house, she lived at yours. you never wore anything but her clothes, and she never wore anything but yours. you talked on the phone three or four times a day, just because that's what girls do.
everything that happened, she knew. and any secret wasn't a secret between you.

i don't have that anymore. in fact, i don't have any female friends at all.

where's my 'other'? where's my friend that i see everyday. that when i'm going to see a movie, i know she'll go too.
i want someone to go shopping with that's not a boy. i want someone to listen to deathcabforcutie with. i want someone to hold hands and frolic with. someone who thinks my hellokitty background is the shit. i want someone to have inside jokes and be stupid with. someone who needs my freakish girly-ness. someone to tell me when my outfit sucks. someone who's hair i can play with. someone who i can love with all my heart. someone to watch the oc with. i want someone who lives in this state.
there are some things that a boyfriend can't be to a girl. there are something things he shouldn't be responsible for being to a girl.